Saturday, June 8, 2013

Spirit Lead Me...

After a great period of living on the mountaintops, I now find myself walking through a deep valley. I have wonderful memories, precious family and terrific friends, but missing Ted has left such a huge hole in my life there are times I can't imagine ever being whole again.

As I wade through tedious to-do's, I am exasperated that seemingly simple transactions can become so difficult as I am sent through endless strings of automated attendants and people who can't help me. Then the details of my days burst into my consciousness at night and steal my sleep. 

But as I lay awake, I call on my Lord. A beautiful song (Oceans: Where Feet May Fail) I heard in church a few weeks ago drifts through my mind to soothe me:
You call me out upon the waters
The great unknown where feet may fail
And there I find You in the mystery
In oceans deep
My faith will stand

And I will call upon Your name
And keep my eyes above the waves
When oceans rise
My soul will rest in Your embrace
For I am Yours and You are mine

Your grace abounds in deepest waters
Your sovereign hand
Will be my guide
Where feet may fail and fear surrounds me
You've never failed and You won't start now
Spirit lead me where my trust is without borders
Let me walk upon the waters
Wherever You would call me
Take me deeper than my feet could ever wander
And my faith will be made stronger
In the presence of my Savior
I realize this is a period of making my faith stronger, making me more effective for my Lord. I am called to trust Him without borders -- wherever He leads me. Just as I have been learning all along, I must keep my eyes on Him, not on the waves.

Gracious Lord, you have given me many reminders that you are near. Your grace abounds in these deep waters. You will be my husband now and I look to you to fill that great hole in my heart. 


  1. ((((((Hugs))))) you are often in my thoughts and prayers. Praying for an ever deepening sense of peace and love permeates your soul.

  2. Marilyn even Peter doubted,... I don't recall Jesus asking anyone else in the Bible to walk on water though. Peter only fell when he didn't keep his trust in Jesus.
    Big Hug Laurie

    Matthew 14:22-33

    New International Version (NIV)

    Jesus Walks on the Water

    22 Immediately Jesus made the disciples get into the boat and go on ahead of him to the other side, while he dismissed the crowd. 23 After he had dismissed them, he went up on a mountainside by himself to pray. Later that night, he was there alone, 24 and the boat was already a considerable distance from land, buffeted by the waves because the wind was against it.

    25 Shortly before dawn Jesus went out to them, walking on the lake. 26 When the disciples saw him walking on the lake, they were terrified. “It’s a ghost,” they said, and cried out in fear.

    27 But Jesus immediately said to them: “Take courage! It is I. Don’t be afraid.”

    28 “Lord, if it’s you,” Peter replied, “tell me to come to you on the water.”

    29 “Come,” he said.

    Then Peter got down out of the boat, walked on the water and came toward Jesus. 30 But when he saw the wind, he was afraid and, beginning to sink, cried out, “Lord, save me!”

    31 Immediately Jesus reached out his hand and caught him. “You of little faith,” he said, “why did you doubt?”

    32 And when they climbed into the boat, the wind died down. 33 Then those who were in the boat worshiped him, saying, “Truly you are the Son of God.”

  3. Marilyn... You've been in my thoughts and prayers. I know you will find comfort in the Lord's arms.


  4. My Dear Friend Marilyn, My heart goes out to you in this time of dispare. Know that we are all praying for you that our loving Lord will hold you tightly and keep you in His peace. Lean on Him as He holds you and comforts you. God loves you so much as you have beeh one of His FAITHFUL SERVANTS. He is ever present and walking along side of you or caring you through this valley.

    Love you and please know I pray for you every day.

  5. Hi Marilyn,

    I am looking forward to talking and walking with you someday soon.
    I sent an online subscription of ABIDING to my "soon-to-be" married niece, Laura. Can't wait to tell you why.

    It is evident that this valley is a place that no one of us, except our Lord, can bring you through. In our many Bible studies, you have taught me to believe and pray to Jesus, asking Him to help me remain "faith-filled" when the circumstances of my life are not what I want them to be.

    I am praying for you now that in the valley you find unexpected fields of flowers and butterflies that God has put there just for You. love you, vic